Confessions Of An UnOrGaNiZeD Mom

Be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving each other, just as God in Christ also has forgiven you.

—Ephesians 4:32

TODAY’S DARE

In addition to saying nothing negative to your spouse again today, do at least one unexpected gesture as an act of kindness.

NIGHT BEFORE THOUGHTS

Ahhhh....Today was hard enough not to lash out, so now I have to add tomorrow too?? I know at this point some of you are asking:

"Why is this girl doing this challenge if all she does is complain?" 

I'm realizing that it's harder when your spouse doesn't know you're doing the challenge.  So as I'm trying to better myself, I'm still dealing with his negativity.  Slightly harder than I anticipated I guess.  Now the hard part comes....the gesture of kindness LOL

MY EXPERIENCE

I started the day off wrong.  Tony bitched at me this morning that  he has no gas in his truck.  I was already rushing to get myself ready for work, and the boys ready for school, while he laid on the sofa observing, I snapped at him that he had the debit card so he has PLEANTY of time all day with no kids to get his gas. 

We didn't talk much during the day since I was working, and when I got home I decided to let LO play with my old lap top which needs a new hard drive, which we're not going to have the money for, and besides, I have a new one.  Well, that was apparently wrong because he flipped out yelling about how it wasn't a toy and took it away from the boys.  How am I supposed to be nice with so much negativity? 

All in all I failed on the saying nothing negative, and I think I took the easy way out of my act of kindness.....I didn't complain about him being on the computer all night.  When he went to clean up the kitchen I told him to just load the dishwasher and I would take care of the rest, and then I handled the whole get the kids ready for bed without a huff or a puff by myself.  To me that was kind!